I moved back to Ontario with one simple goal; build a life here. I decided to go back to school so I can get a job that pays good (not as much as teaching but good enough), complete the adoption process here, live here forever with my family and live happily ever after. Now a year and a bit later that doesn't even seem possible. The job market here is rough and the housing market even worse. For ever job posting a hundred people are fighting for it. For every house listing a hundred people are fighting for it. It's come to the point where I know that for me to stay here my only option will be to work at a call centre the rest of my life making just over minimum wage. This is not acceptable for me. This is not going to help lead me to my future daughter. This will not provide my daughter with the best chances in life. In order to change this is means I need to do something big. I need to do something that I'm terrified of. It means I need to leave Ontario forever. By forever I don't mean I will never be back for visits, I just mean that I need to start building a life elsewhere.
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I started a new job two weeks ago..... ugh! The employer itself isn't an issue it's the job. It's a call centre and I'm sure anyone who has ever worked understands why I hate it so much. Anyway, it's been difficult. I'm trying to balance being happy with my job and making as much money as I can, as quickly as I can, in order to bring my daughter home. It's really hard. I've been offered a position at the school I used to work at but it's a challenging place to live and financially might not be the best decision. It would mean that I couldn't take any classes next term and it's a whole lot of paperwork to move back to a different province. I've also been looking at some other jobs locally and within the same province but I'm totally confused on what to do. I know the journey to having enough money will take at least two years and I just can't imagine suffering through the call centre for that long. I miss having a job I love but I also don't want to make a poor financial or emotional decision. Ugh, life!
As I've said a million times before, I am not good at waiting. I need to always feel like I'm doing something, moving forward in some way. I need to feel like I'm making progress instead of just sitting around waiting for something to happen. Since with the adoption I don't have much of a choice for how fast things happen I'm trying to keep busy in different ways.
I've been having some issues with my posts actually posting so sorry about that. I've tried on my computer, some different browsers, even on the app but nothing seemed to work. Hopefully things are working now.... Updates: - I got an email about showing my profile to a possible birth mom. I said yes they could show it but I never heard back so she must have picked someone else. - Not much going on with other birth moms. Future plans: - I'm currently saving money for surrogacy (with donor eggs). It's expensive but at least I know what my next step will be. - For the website I'm going to start having a schedule starting in May. I will be posting updates on Mondays and product reviews on Fridays. I'm super excited to have a plan for the site instead of just updating whenever I remember. That's it for now! If anything comes up I will update. Otherwise stay tuned starting in May for regular posts :) |
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I am 31, single, and been on my journey to becoming a single mother since 2013. I have struggled with infertility and I am now on the path to international adoption of a little girl with Down syndrome. Come join me on my journey to becoming a mother! Categories
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